The recorded version can help. I was sent some tapes of an some informal session, recorded over a few days. I was listening to this and feel pretty much as Barbara describes, when I heard this solo instrument playing a tune that I was trying to place. I thought at first that is was a chap who I remember being there with a resonator guitar, but the point was that I thought it sounded great as I was really enjoying it. It took be right back and I had the 'shivers down the backbone'.

Then it slowly dawned on me that is was in fact me playing one of my own tunes on the bouzouki. I felt really great then.

If I had expected to hear myself, I would have probably heard all the bad bits and felt exactly as Barbara describes..... We are complicated are we not?