" in the interim between date of assessment and today, my pain and inflammation has increased. "

That's a legitimate reason to reapply.

"I am trapped. I just want to go home to Virginia to die now. That is all I want. I can't do this anymore."

STOP IT! Life can be difficult sometimes T, you've just got to suck it up sometimes. Indulging in death fantasies won't help, you, your daughter, or your husband, who loves you to bits!