Sorted things out with the line manager. We are friends again. I am not to worry about losing my job due to sick/disability absence. I am doing a fabulous job. Lyrica (prgabalin) defo making paranoid. She completely understood. Said not to worry about making certain the hubs are covered. No one will be penalised if a hub is not covered due to extraordinary circumstances such as illness.

Had terrible terrible nightmare early last night while dozing on the sofa. Lost my daughters. Lost both of them and was frantically looking for them. Andie (young adult) had not been in contact for weeks and weeks and I didn't know where she was and had no way of contacting her. Leaving messages with her friends.

Hilary (about 5 or 6 - which is weird because the girls were only 3 years apart) was missing from the house which was a cobbled together mish mash of the house they grew up in and the hose I grew up in. The house was in my old neighbourhood. Knocking on doors, checking back yards and old scummy pond/pool.

Utter terror. Couldn't find them, woke up gasping and shouting. Then reality hit me and it was in some ways worse than the dream. There is no finding Andie. She is not ever coming home. Shaken and sobbing for several hours after that. So did not properly go to bed until around 2am. Thank you sudoku.
Still sleeping very poorly with lots of waking up in pain.

Spent this morning shaking, crying, feeling unsettled, unable to focus on anything.