As a teenager I sang a few times in Kiwanis Competitions. The combination of singing in public and competing terrified me so much that always screwed up. I usually received kind comments on the excellence of my recovery but never won a single ribbon. Years later I started going to our local song circle. There I was able to practice singing in front of people who were supportive and not competitive and now I want to do it more and more. I still want to be the best though.