Ah, I thought it was just me. I usually feel awful after a performance. Not IMMEDIATELY after, but maybe ten minutes or so after. Sometimes I have to leave the very fine company I might be in to be on my own and be down for a while. I also just don't know what to do with myself (with apologies to Bacharach). Pack up, fiddle with things, clean up - anything but sit back and relax.

What strange animals we are!

My partner swears he doesn't get nervous before a gig, but his face goes all dark and he kind of withdraws into himself. If anyone talks to him, he can be short, which he never is in 'non pre-gig' circumstances. After a gig he is ecstatic - laughing, happy, hugging, beer-drinking.

Bummer - that's just when I'm having a big downer!

Callie