My grand father great grandfather and great great grandfather all had alcoholism written on their death certificate as one of the causes of death. For generations the males of my fathers family were alcoholics who beat their wives and allowed their children to go hungry. I will always be grateful that my father was a man, man enough to say this has to stop and it stops with me.

I cannot give advice but I can give encouragement YOU can do this. Look around your area at what help may be available different things help different people. One thing to remember you don't have to do this forever "Today I will not drink" the longest of life's is not made of years but of many todays.