My deepest sympathy to you and all the family and friends of your beloved. Your sorrow is real and serves as a testament to the wonderful relationship you have enjoyed. Go ahead and grieve. Hold your memories in celebration of the life of your dear friend. The excrutiating pain will pass. One day you will think of your friend with smiles instead of tears, thankful for the time you shared. May God's mercy fall on you all in this difficult time. God Bless your friend.