One Big Mick hug coming up. I have a couple of things I do. One is that I vow that this friend will live on by my sharing of memories with those left behind. If there are children, I will help them to know the one who has gone on to the next leg of the journey. I will share stories about them, lessons learned from them, and humorous stories about them. Another thing is to look for their song in others. We know the soul is forever, and we know that one cannot walk this plane without leaving traces. I look for the traces, nurture them and help them grow so they give honor to the one who has left. If they were musicians/singers I will pass on to someone that I think is worthy a song or lyric I learned from my departed loved one. And I tell them who I got it from and what they meant to me. I hope you don't think I am being nuts, these are just things I do to insure that people I love are still in my life.
Most importantly, dear Patrish, get your grieving over. Grieve hard, and then get on with living. I am sorry for your loss.