More love, hugs and heart-felt wishes to you Patrish. I've done my share of crying in my life too....let it out, it's a natural part of the grieving process.
Also to you Jaze...may you feel the warmth and prayers of this community at your sad loss.
A poem I had on several sympathy cards when I lost someone very close to me is as follows....and I still cry everytime I read it.......
Near shady wall a rose once grew, Budded and blossomed in God's free light, Watered and fed by the morning dew, Shedding it's sweetness day and night.
As it grew and blossomed fair and tall, Slowly rising to loftier height, It came to a crevice in the wall Through which there shone a beam of light.
Onward it crept with added strength With never a thought of fear or pride, It followed the light through the crevice's length And unfolded itself on the other side.
The light, the dew, the broadening view Were found the same as they were before, And it lost itself in beauties new, Breathing it's fragrance more and more.
Shall claim of death cause us to grieve And make our courage faint and fall? Nay! Let us faith and hope receive-- The rose still grows beyond the wall,
Scattering fragrance far and wide Just as it did in days of yore, Just as it does on the other side, Just as it will forevermore.