Saz, please, for your own sake, get help. Bee-dubya is absolutely correct and his questions deserve an answer FROM YOU.

You sound very much like the radical left of the Sixties: EVERYTHING is political, overturn the Establishment, everything is black and white, if you're not part of the solution you're part of the problem (as the SDS used to say).

You needn't worry about me shooting you; I wouldn't waste a bullet. Besides, "come the revolution" I'm shooting at BOTH sides.