Sawz, when I get past your comments to the person behind them, I feel very sad for you. You must be suffering tremendously. From your posts it is obvious that you have a lot of anger as well as, perhaps, other troubling things going on between your ears.

It is not a sin or a sign of weakness to go for mental health help. It is a sign of strength of character and testament that you want to be a better person, which is a very admirable human trait. If you were to holster your verbal guns and stop hurting people, I am sure you would get a lot of support and hugs here to help you on your journey.

But I digress from the OP. Fire away.

Saul