Jaze, you have my thoughts lying with you, also....I don't really know what else to say....but do you write sing or play? If so you might try lancing your wounds with creativity, bleeding the pain out and making a piece of art that will stand as a monument to your daughter....I don't know about anyone else but the pen is the best therapist I have ever encountered....one more thing, the day will come when you will hold her in your arms again.

Amergin