Dear All, Thank you. I must admit that on Friday I had really gone to pieces, I couldn't speak without crying. I read and re read this thread and felt comforted by its sincerity and warmth. I have "spoken" to Jean and feel a step further in this process. I went to visit some folkie friends at the weekend (Billy Macs House - for those who know him) and they helped me by just being there. I had a sing and I sang a song myself, nothing to do with death or dying infact in was "an old man came courting me" and I belted it out - not in my usual hesitant weak voice, but stronger and mostly in tune. I know Jean would have had a laugh at it. I also saw my daughter and thinking of Jaze I told her how much I loved her and then promptly won £20 on a quiz machine - I dont know what impressed her the most! My thoughts have been more geared to Jeans family, The funeral is on Friday morning. Then its Manchester where I will be collecting some hugs and snogs.
Thank you again, lots of love from Patrish xxxxxxxxxxx