The Mudcat Café TM
Thread #147863 Message #3434947
Posted By: Dorothy Parshall
11-Nov-12 - 07:06 PM
Thread Name: Declutter & Exercise - NOV````2012
Subject: RE: Declutter & Exercise - NOV````2012
With the ongoing business crisis, I have been staying in the city - a support just by R knowing I am closer than an hour away. Today, I finally managed to put a heater upstairs (so I could pot) but it was still cold after two hours so I have just sat here all day, reading and interneting. Sheer inertia. Did try to carry a box of clay up and decided 40 kg is not an option, at least not up stairs. And I just did not feel like ripping it open and taking half.
I guess I would much rather be in the country and shall have to go out tomorrow to refill the food for the guys. R did try to get the baseboard heat working but the necessary parts have disappeared in the years since it was last used. Maybe tomorrow.
I filled the food Friday and went to the cafe but the stress/worry got me so I had a bit of a melt down and came back to the city rather than sit there looking miserable. Clearly R was not going to get out and he appreciated me coming back. He works 12 hour days, sometimes more - physical mostly but mental is worse, and gets home wiped out. Last night he managed a bath and fell asleep in it. I guess the good thing is that he falls asleep on the sofa about 9 and I can get him into bed by 10 or so, and he manages to sleep most of the night from sheer exhaustion. How long can a 65 year old, even in good health, keep this up?
Saturday I drove him around picking up stuff and then sat in the car for 3 hours, while he and crew worked nearby, reading, in case he needed me. I feel like a security blanket! Yep, I guess I am. On Friday, I was terrified I would not be able to hold him together but I have. And this is my goal so... Not really complaining, just kind of worried. Friday was the worst day in the 3 years I have been here.
I have not completed the transition: things are there that I need here. I think I will go tomorrow without announcing my intent, get some work done and fill the feeder and return with vitamin pills and distiller. He can phone me and I can be back in 50 minutes. Not much different than if I went shopping on the West Island. I NEED to get pots made. Just a couple hours worth.
Reading the Christmas Tree thread made me think in terms of having company. If I set a time and tell him- repeatedly- he will be there. Saturday, 22 December in the country. Can prob have 8 people comfortably. And another in the city but upstairs. Would mean carrying everything up from the kitchen but there is a pleasant space for maybe a dozen. This is - I am sick and tired of not being able to have any company because he cannot commit ....!!!!! And this house is a disaster downstairs so let's get it together and use the upstairs. Enough is enough.
In the midst of all this stress, I have managed to keep the clothes washed, meals cooked, black bean soup made, groceries bought, but NO POTS MADE!!!!