Pretty good, gnu. I think I agree with a lot of that. Yes, I do think we judge ourselves in the end, according to what we did (or didn't do), and we very well may be inclined to punish ourselves accordingly...and also be glad about the good we did. Most of us have to face a mixture of bad and good that we did, after all.

I also think, though, that we are all connected to a source much greater than ourselves, one which loves us beyond measure, no matter what we've done...just as a parent loves a young child.

But when death comes...we can choose to run away from it in fear if we want to...and if so, that's hell.

Or we can choose to forgive ourselves and others, willingly surrender to that great love from which we came...and that's heaven.

And there are probably many different versions of both heaven and hell, depending on how your individual consciousness works.

And I don't think "punishment" is eternal. I think even the most unforgiving and cruel person IS capable of finally waking up at some point, forgiving himself and others, and thereby redeeming himself...just as soon as he gets fed up with the pain of not doing so.

Not saying I know.   I just think it may be kind of like that.