I agree, Jack. Despite the conflict of mind and the doubts, and difficulties in imagining the Hereafter, I still try to keep plodding on towards my God, doing what Jesus advised, (which after all is very simple, as others have said:- Love God and Love your neighbour) and just hoping that God accepts my feeble efforts and takes me to Himself at the end. It's all any of us can do really. As they say at the end of a TV episode: "All will be revealed..."