Despite the conflict of mind and the doubts, and difficulties in imagining the Hereafter, I still try to keep plodding on towards my God, doing what Jesus advised, (which after all is very simple, as others have said:- Love God and Love your neighbour) and just hoping that God accepts my feeble efforts and takes me to Himself at the end. It's all any of us can do really. As they say at the end of a TV episode: "All will be revealed..."

Well I also do what Jesus advised, though a good deal of it I might have been doing whether Jesus had advised it or not (I happen to be one of those wacky atheists who are convinced that Jesus was the real thing and said some very sensible things. He is also alleged to have said certain things that I ascribe to the fanciful imaginations of some of his more tendentious followers, writing mostly long after he died, and it isn't always easy to separate the two). All will be revealed? Ask the bugger why he can't reveal a bit more right now! He'd get a damn sight more people on board if he did! He's an illogical fellow, this God! Oops, sorry...forgot about those "mysterious ways"...