I am not so confident of my path that I don't have my own worries. I have to contend with conflicting instructions from the Bible and my own faults.

I do feel compelled to say that that when I was an atheist I was a lot more firm in my beliefs (or lack of them) than you appear to be. I never fell for that "what if you are wrong?" trap.

I also would be the first to admit that the underpinning of my beliefs are more practical that theological.

I am happier and more emotionally strong when I believe that when I didn't.

Your mileage may vary.

One thing I have always believed is that most TV evangelists are evil. But it doesn't take much wisdom to see that.