its ten to one in the morning and I have a large brandy,

when mum went to bed tonight she could not remember where her bedroom was , and put her false teeth in her glasses case, heartbreaking!!

Wish I could sometimes just have my " old mum" back just so she knows how much I love her. Sometimes when her carer goes home she clings to her and asks " when will I see you again" as if the carer is the most important person in her life!

Just having a silly moment, will be better in the morning, I know that others have much more troubling times ( Spaw and Charlie etc etc )

Just thanking the gods and stars for the Rainbow crew, I know you share tears and smiles together.( Nigel, wonderful news , waiting to hear the new music, and so wanting to meet you and Ann at the beach hut even in the east coast autumn winds)

Better go to bed.

fondest love and loving thoughts

Wendy

xxxxxx

ps Billy is much better after 4 weeks of a rotten virus, if I can get a new passport we are hoping to plan a week away and have been recommended Cape Verde islands ????