I actually felt sick and tired of just reading novels today - but did not quite muster enough energy to get the sewing machine out of the storage area and set it up and do something useful. Largely because it meant putting on the respirator to sort things out AND opening the door to go in and out a couple times would mean more pollution getting into living space.

I did go out and get a ladder, the stapler and newspaper to cover the last hole in the ceiling. That seemed to be my limit of wearing the respirator and going in and out - for fear of letting too much pollution into living space. That is actually an irrational fear as the air cleaner is designed for a much larger space and can easily do the job-- I am telling myself so I can do more tomorrow. Goal: remove winter clothes from storage to cupboards in living space. Sewing machine, too.

I did manage to wash my hair under the hose when it warmed up. That felt good. And walked up to the field and talked to the "nursery guy" for a while. He now has hundreds of trees in pots and concern for protecting them in the cold weather. He also pointed out an area he has cleared where I can plant some of the perennials.

The sawdust emanating from the studio on the prevailing breeze precluded sitting outside today. Having ascertained the toxicity of inhaled sawdust last night, I am in a state of extreme caution. Five months of feeling lousy and coughing way too much and worse the last couple weeks has made me very fed up, scared, frustrated, and angry. After B left tonight, I opened the door and window in the studio in hopes of airing it out so I can get some work done tomorrow before he starts again - usually about noon. Maybe I can find the exhaust fan, too.

I tried to go to the writers' group. They are very accepting about my wearing the respirator but I was having trouble breathing with it on and had to leave and come back home. I seem to have some upper respiratory involvement today; clogged nasal passages make it harder to breathe.      

Thinking of Linn. How fortunate Tom is to have her.