It's so early yet...I woke sometime between 5 an 5:30. No panic attack (I've been awakening to some of those lately), but couldn't concentrate on the mindless mystery, fidgety, and very very teary for no real reason.

I don't often cry. Never did as a kid, and I've made it to 64 with most of my few tears being tears of frustration (well, except for some of those raging hormonal unbalance tears during perimenopause when a picture of a puppy, or a something about a stranger on the radio would bring tears to my eyes; but not real crying).

Before six I decided to call Tom because I really needed to hear his voice. He'd been asleep both times I'd called last night -- glad I'd told him "goodnight" just in case before I left the hospital. Reached Cindi, the nurse who saw us through so much last year after his broken ankle. Told her I didn't usually call this early, but if he was awake, I'd like to talk to him. He was awake. Not only awake, but alert an in good spirits, so we talked for awhile. I still kept tearing up and having trouble talking -- for no real reason. Talked about the conversations I had last night with friends, the people I still needed to call.

Just finished a cup of the chorizo/kale soup -- it's hearty, healthy, filling and makes a good meal no matter what time it is. Too early to start making phone calls, but I can get another bag or so ready for Goodwill. And I just thought of something my neighbor CAN do for me since she keeps offering and seems to be frustrated that she can't contribute something.

Bill, as far as I know, there are only those two videos at YouTube of Tom singing. Joe Stead of Kimber's Men took them at a house concert at Sinsull's about 6 months before Tom's cancer diagnosis. We have one professionally (Chris Biggi/Sunset Ridge) recorded was cassette from 1988/now digitized to CD. I've been hoping (time...time...and learning how to do it) to put some of these songs on YouTube illustrated with some of my photographs. I don't want Tom's voice to be forgotten.

Trying to make up my mind if I need to go back to sleep for an hour or so...

Later,
Linn