hmm, Lil Neo...wonder if I phrased that wrong..meant to say humorously that the usual question to ME is "how much will you pay?"..(from Woody Allen movie..."I've got a new job...down at the Follies helping the girls dress"

.."Oh, sounds interesting...how much?" .

"25 francs a day"...".

.."That's not much"..

"It's all I can afford")
(I have been an 'ear' a few times, but personal advice is hard to do...*soft smile*...sometimes friends stay friends longer if you don't try to solve things better left to professionals with no vested interest)

......and Guest...in all seriousness..('cause it IS serious)..yes...when it is YOU, it makes no difference how many others have it worse. About the only thing that helps at all besides solving it is to talk with someone willing to listen....which is sort of what is going on here...a bit of sympathy, a bit of levity, a bit of advice...

When I left Kansas, I was leaving a relationship, and I spent a year or so thinking that I'd probably be alone the rest of my life..(silly, but...)...fortunately, I just went out and did things, like joining the Folklore Society...*smile*...and before I knew it, things changed...and 20 years later, I am older, happier and sort of wiser. You do what you can, and hope it helps....