It's not that planning this memorial is a hardship...I have plenty of resources. It's just that...I don't know. I'm having trouble getting going on it. I've thought about it . It's not as if this memorial is goodbye...Tom will be with me forever. And, quite honestly, after it's accomplished, I'll be Abe to get on with converting a lot of cubic footage into small green pieces of paper with historical figures on them. I might also be able to just figuratively curl up in thebfetal position and suck my thumb.

I was very weepy today. Memories were crowding in on me. And that's not a bad thing... Uncle Orin dying was One. More. Thing. I'm just feeling over extended. I HAVE been at a gallop since at least October.

My sister sent the photographs taken at Mom's funeral by my mother's cousin's daughter. I look tired... I wonder why...

I'm so glad I went over to see Cesar at Tangibles (antique shop) today. I hadn't talked to him since right after Tom died. We had a .lovely talk. he's been such a good friend to Tom and I. Unfortunately he'll be in the DR for the memorial.

Anyway, glad I got to Maine to see him. Was a little late for the Press Room session, but I really needed that, too. Where would I be without music? It was a good session.

I'm going back to my book and opera on Pandora...

Linn