Claire, I'm very sorry that you feel so apprehensive about your care facilities. But so far, it seems that nothing too bad has happened and things are on a fairly even keel. It's easy to dread the future, especially when we're shown awful documentaries on TV about care abuse, but don't take your flatmate's comments too seriously. I know you like your music and books, and I suggest you try to have many happy moments with those. If (and it probably won't happen!) things go wrong with standards of care, there are many agencies to approach for help and intervention. I send you my best thoughts, prayers and wishes. Eliza x