Kendall! You weren't supposed to tell!
Talk helps me. So does having a job to do. For me, It's physical labor.
I've been where you are and it sucks big time. But it always slacks off and things improve.
Checking out IS an option but it's pretty final. They are coming up with more and more information about our shared problem every day and a cure-if not final at least partial- may be just around the corner.
PM me if you need to talk.

troll *public servant.Sheesh!*