So I fell in love with the wrong person. I really thought there was a mutual feeling. After a very long period, I made sure I was not incumbered; I separated from my spouse, a troubled relationship; I moved to another state. The object of my love refused my invitation. I grew very, very lonely. Have you ever been or done anything so stupid and foolish? I should have found something selfless to give my energy towards to make me happy and fulfilled. I am pathetic and can't bring myself to use my mudcat name. I am also broked hearted, but that will mend. Geez.......