Pondering is fine but it goes nowhere without a quest for evidence. There is joy in the science process that is denied to aimless ponderers. There is no "Beyond" but there is stuff that is currently beyond our limited intellectual and scientific resources, but that was ever thus and we have an honourable history of inexorably closing in (which is why you make your desperate and fearful attempts to ridicule). The only things we can't close in on are the things that religion has deliberately made impossible to close in on, all your invented magic stuff. We don't need silly ideas of Beyond and "divinity" but, if it'll keep you off the street, do continue to ponder. Try not to drag anyone else down with you, that's all.