I have no interest whatsoever in attacking your faith. I have no certainties. And please talk about your faith all you like. Just talk about it, don't try to foist it. If you don't talk about it there's no way we can know how your mind works. Jesus never told you to lie to people in order to get them to follow him. He said let your speech be yea yea, nay nay. Once he was dead he no longer had control over what was written about him, generally many decades later by four men who had never known him. And many other accounts have been suppressed, lest we forget. Turn your back on the truth of evolution and you deserve all the ridicule available. Instead, try to turn your critical faculties back on.