WW, there's a candle set up with your name on it, as soon as I get home from work. As the other posts show, there's been a lot of progress on this disease over the past decade or so, and a lot of work still being done. It's normal to be scared, so I'd be a little worried if you weren't man enough to admit to it.
I think you have to die at sea for Fiddler's Green, but perhaps accomodations can be arranged if and when both you and it (they? are ready). (apologies if the medical/metaphysical humor is a bit strange, but I was always assured by my relatives that I'd recover from something because those that are born to be hanged can't die any other way. And I'm still here. Hmmm);)