I'm sorry Steve.

I don't know what your beliefs are and I don't like ramming the bible down people's throats but Isiah 57 1-2 may be of some consolation to you at the moment:

1 The righteous perish, and no one ponders it in his heart; devout men are taken away, and no one understands that the righteous are taken away to be spared from evil. 2 Those who walk uprightly enter into peace; they find rest as they lie in death.

Jon