Ok I'm safe I'm safe I'm safe...

But...

Apparently in the US there is only long-term treatment for addiction, which is luckily not my issue. My current plan, which I deeply hope not to implement, is to fake-attempt suicide badly enough to be involuntarily committed but not actually kill myself.

This morning I finally remembered to write down my sister's phone number instead of waiting to push the button on my smart phone... It ends in 0486, and my brain went Oh[, yeah, I'm all] for eighty-six[ing myself].

But I am in a safe place. Still kinda farfrompoopin' but hey.