Oh, Charmion, I am so sorry to hear this. I don't know if you remember that I, too, lost a beloved to an unexpected heart attack (in 2003), and the love and concern of Mudcatters worldwide was one of the things that sustained me. Lean on your community, here and at home, and know that you are being cared for in unseen ways. Reach out if you feel the need.

I only met Ed once, long ago in New Hampshire, and was impressed by his voice, his humor, and his kindness. My heart is with you now.