I gather you believe you understand and we don't. Its a common problem.
The way you try to recover truth is like reaching for a quarter stuck beside a car seat and console. The further you reach, the more you loosen the quarter which eventually falls further. Try recovering it from the bottom/foundation to begin with.
A foundation of history and other education is path most intellegensia take. The reason why Hitler put the intellegensia to death first will become crystal clear.