If you get the monal clonals and steroids it will feel like you snorted your body weight in coke. You might not feel so philonthropic then.
You have been a walking weapon before, don't sweat it. Its time like these you feel more alive.

If it doesn't work out remember ahead of time to hire a sin cake eater at your wake who will eat a collection of small cakes off your chest to absorb all your sins.