very sorry to hear this. As Pete Waddon says quite correctly - music is therapeutic.- just holding my guitar ( I find) is very soothing and it calms me down.

The performance thing is a lovely thing to have in your life. But gigging professionally is stressful. The roads seem to get worse, more full of psychotic drivers.

I loved performing but I don't miss it as much as I thought I would. The music is the thing - its always waiting there for you like an old friend. Its a sort of dividend that that has been building up all these years when you were practising and hustling round.

take care Nick.