That is sad, BWM. I think you should reconsider as it seems to be a case of "taking your ball home" but that is entirely up to you of course. Remember though that not many people who do not love dogs actually hate or fear them. I am one of the many who neither love nor hate them. I am more than happy to stroke and pet them when appropriate but would never own one. It doesn't mean that I cannot celebrate your joy with you.