Mrrzy, sorry the world is out to get you right now. It will divert its savage attention to some other poor victim when it's had its fun (in my experience).
Meanwhile, I'd recommend (from the first quarter or so) a strangely life-affirming book about a woman who takes her own life - but before dying, finds herself in a library full of regrets, where she can relive all the things in her life that have burdened her with regret, grief, guilt and sorrow. It's called The Midnight Library, and it's as comforting as a warm purring cat on your lap.