Still looking for the energy for the five hour trip. It has already started snowing at Beaver! I will not drive in that.
Today is my dad's birthday; he died at 58 in 1962. Today, I recognize that his expectation that I would marry - that was the thing back then! He was so careful about letting me live my own life - expectations ??? He carefully did not tell me that he did not really like my "fiance"; he wanted me to make my own decisions. I would never have married a man my father was not 100% for! Failure to communicate may be our greatest human problem; my dogs did better. Hence- 65 years of tears. A DT clone is the simplest way to describe my ex. And my two sons not appreciating that I have only contempt for the father they love; they know he is a diagnosed psychopath, that he beat up on two wives - they saw it, were there. My small consolation- the boys would never strike a woman, or anyone unless someone was endangered. The PTSD does not go away.
Weather was at freezing today. Traffic in town is a mess due to idiotic mis-management. Getting across the bridge has gone from 30 minutes to an hour or two. R only comes home every 2-3 days. The Main Street is so bad I don't even like to go shopping. So, we live on the outer edge of town and I decided to go to a town 20 minutes away today. Got some of what I wanted at one store. Will explore the other two another time. No pumpernickel bread, R's current fav. And the good cheese is much more expensive than at the upscale cheese store here - but on that main road ... may be in the late morning ... And maybe the produce store will have the bread.
The current full moon - (past now) - was amazing. I want in the kitchen and the back porch was so bright, I went out to see if a neighbour had a flood light! Apparently it was special.