I nearly did once,I was willing to take 5 lives because the father would not lend me a truck to earn myself £30 for to spend on drink,I can assure you all that I would have commited that act,I was so sure that I tried to manufacture a petrol bomb to pitch thru the window ,thanks be to God that it did not happen but I had to confess to them good people many, many years later, today I could not hurt a fish (I gave it up so as I wold not inflict pain on them ,I'm still sick but not as bad)