good luck weskora. Don't know where you live, but if there is a drum store in your vicinity you might find a bodhran. Just don't call it that, they might not understand. Try asking for a "big hand drum". You can get them with synthetic (plastic) heads very cheaply, (maybe 20 to 30 bucks) and those are okay to learn on, but when you're ready to leave the house you'll need a "real" one. A short piece of dowling can substitute as a beater in a pinch.