Yes. A few times. I can't go into details. There were no good choices available to me, so I formed my decisions based on whether or not I would be able to live with myself if I didn't follow my conscience and things turned out badly. The short term consequences were horrific, but the long term outcomes were very good. If I had to make these decisions over again, I would do exactly as I did.

I was influenced to some extent by some close friends, by some books I'd read, and by a wise and gentle man who helped me understand how much is enough.

And I thought about Raoul Wallenberg a lot. I figured that no matter how bad it got, it couldn't be worse than what he went through.