Sharon - Sounds a lot like my Christmases too. I don't really have a family and it's been 4 years now since I had even a passable relationship at holiday time. Usually I get invited over to a friend's family gathering and wind up feeling very dissappointed when I don't fit in as part of the family. I try to tell myself every year not to accept my friends generous offers, but I usually accept.
By the way, one of the homes around the corner from mine has decorated their yard for Christmas - they did so on Hallowe'en night while the kids were going trick-or-treating.