Patrish; Hell no it isn't pathetic! After everything you've been through helping Allan maybe a bloody good cry and throwing a bit of the creature down is just what the doctor ordered! My condolences about your friend and I do hope Allan is doing better. I have no technical advise to give but if prayer is working then you are in mine and keep your going to the all compassionate one. please keep us all iunformed of Allan's progress and do visit frequently even if only to rip up the carpet as needed. Kindest regards, Neil