My first long term relationship, I thought long and hard about marriage but finally popped the question. It lasted 17 years but eventually ended.The second long term relationship I thought long and hard about marriage, kept finding excuses not to and after 10 years she said "you don't really love me - do you" and left. Trouble is, I did (and still do after 6 months apart).
Seems I took the wrong turn on both occasions - oh well, I've still got my guitar.
Allan