Oh, God, I'm a mother of 3 and I know what you meant when you said "This may be the worse thing that has ever happened to me"; she's your child, and even though she's an adult now there's no real separation between you as far as the emotional bond goes...you're not being selfish, just honest. I can't begin to imagine what you must be going through, but my heart & prayers are going out to you & your family; please let us know what happens & feel free to PM me if you like.

Keeping good thoughts,

D.