Ok, it's one of those times. I *really* need hugs.

I'm 23 years old, bright, beautiful, intelligent, talented, and I feel like a total failure.

My teeth need a lot of work, which I can't afford and don't have insurance for. Two out of the three temporary fillings broke today, and my mouth is full of blood. I already have a problem with iron deficiency, this isn't helping.

I can't get a job and I've been in this town for over three months. I had what I thought was a great interview, and nothing. If there's a problem with my references, I dont know about it, and that's all I can think of for WHY I didn't get that job.

I don't know where rent is coming from, or food, unless I ask my EX-boyfriend for help, yet again.

I haven't had energy for anything all week, probably because of the iron getting low, plus vitamin b, plus not getting vegetables because I am running low on money. I had a whole package of beans but it's not cooking up properly, and it's hard to chew.

I've been working at two volunteer jobs that I love, for something to do, and because I haven't had energy to give them lately, they've totally slowed down.

I've been trying to record a CD's worth of original songs onto my computer, but now that I just got a stereo converter I've discovered the borrowed patch cords are mono. People are begging me for the CD, and I said it would be out in May. And not enough people are begging me for it, for me to get a loan from someone.

There's no way I can go back on welfare... they're even worse now than they were when I was on it before.

And I have been having a lot of trouble trying to get various websites actually working. And I can't offer online payments unless I have a credit card or a debit card. Like I can get a credit card? And my bank doesn't offer a debit card.

Don't you sometimes wonder why you're STILL here? Sigh.

WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!! Hugs, please...