I don't know Amergin. I once spoke to someone who happened to be a monk when I was going through loads of bad things. He mentioned a time in his life where he likened it to being in a lift crashing down out of control and thinking "surely this must be the basement floor now" and then finding the "lift" crashing down through another couple of floors...

Not a happy or encouraging view in itself but the fact is shit happens and some people for whatever reason seem to get a lot more, particularly in a run than others may see (perhaps even see in a life time).

The real point is you can and will get through and eventually life will even out but believe me, it can take years. Of course, you have a lot of friends here. It may not seem a lot but every little helps...

Jon