Interesting, Helen -- I'll keep an eye out for it.

Regarding the biology aspect of it: universally, in sexually reproducing animals, the partner that has the most to risk is the one who gets to choose who to take that risk with (only fair). That's why, in most species, it's the males who compete with each other for female attention -- 'cause it's the females who have to expend the energy laying and tending the eggs, or carrying the fetus to term.

But in (relatively) modern human history -- especially in Indo-European cultures, with most of power and property and legal given to the men, it's the women who have to compete with each other, so there is all that pressure to be thinner, taller, bigger-boobed than the next woman, which realy messes up our biology, since our brains want to deal with stress by making social connects rather than fighting or fleeing...

Part of my problem, I think, is that I went through puberty at a time when our culture assumed that disabled people are asexual (I even had someone tell me to my face that handicapped folks make good psychics because we are spiritually purer than others!). Even though I knew, consciously, that that isn't true, I internalized that idea subconsciously... also, I lived in a very rural area -- a 45 minute drive from my high school, so I didn't get to "hang out" with classmates in a purely social setting.

When I was ready, emotionally, to persue romance, I was out of college, and not in the workforce, so I had/have almost no chance to meet with people face to face...

I'll probably put more energy into meeting someone through this Internet thang... but after the deadline. Otherwise, it will feel like I'm doing research! ;-)