Lavender,

Given that you only worked in the trade for a year, and long ago, I rather imagine that this "pub" business is more of an escapist fantasy than anything else--still, you hate your job, and that is real enough---Amos' advice is good--try to understand why you loathe your job--it will help you more than anything else in deciding what your next step should be--

I try to avoid non-music postings anymore, but I've just lost a close friend to cancer--it came on quickly, and he was too young--the one consolation we have is that he spent a lot of time doing the things he enjoyed and cared about--if you put these things off til later, remember that there may be no "later"--