Antabuse or AA, or both. No other choices, GUEST. Sorry. AA is not necessarially for "rock bottom" folks, as you'll find out when you attend. You'll have a sponser, who like you, is recovering. Recovery can begin right now and from what you've posted is what you know you need. So get to it. Yep, a couple of phone calls and you're on you're way. And, yes, it is a disease. I know.

Bobert